So how many hours do we have with the kids/family?

1.

It's about 3am, I cannot sleep well, can feel the temperature rising inside.
With a mug of KapalApi coffee, let's try to jot something that I have wanted to jot all week long.
No intention to make anybody feel bad or what. Just a thought. A reflection for all of us.

2.
We have 24 hours a day. Most of us work and that means at least 8 hours a day gone.
Owhhh darn it!!!......we now have Blackberry & whatchamacallitITshite that would allow 24x7 access to everybody in the world....how do we count that in this case, we work 24x7 whole year long??!!!

Let's just assume the "Blackberry & whatchamacallitITshite that would allow 24x7 access to everybody in the world" are just for status & fashion statement lah....just for show because kalau tak pakai tak class lah pulak...tapi kalau ada pun tak bermakna kena kerja 24x7 ye tak? :o)

So. we'll make that working hours to about 10hours a day, to be very generous on the traveling time to and fro, the lunch/ tea time with the office bunch...and extra hours to cover up the smoking + mengular time whenever applicable....

Normally we'll sleep for about..what..let's say, 6 hours.
About 1 hour of prayers time in a day - 5 waktu & solat2 sunat "meeting the requirement" only (...of course this allocation of time is only for Muslims/ Muslimah who pray lah!)
Allow another 1 hours for bathing and nature's call in the morning and evening.
Another 2 hours for TV or Internet time after office hours (yeah...let's not talk about the hours online spent in the office....)

Total that up....10 + 6 + 1 + 1 + 2 = 20.
20 hours in total.

In a day we have 24 hours (DUH!)...which leaves us about 4 hours of family time in a day - normal working day, perhaps.

So, in 5 working days we have about 20 hours to spend with our kids/ family.
That's about 16% of the total 120 hours in 5 days (24x5 = 120)

Let's be more generous, we have 2 days break.
Each day, maybe we 'll do 8 hours of sleep.
..same allocation of 1 hour of prayers time in a day (...of course this allocation of time is only for Muslims/ Muslimah who pray lah!)
About 1 hour of hygiene time a day (bathe+do-the-loo)
About...say...3 hours of personal time (internet laa, reading laa hobby etc. etc.)

Owhh....golfers...hrmmm 5 hours on the field, mid-way hut drinks, locker room chat, lunch & more drinks after that...ahh malas lah nak kira for golfers!!! Get the caddy to do it for you lah!!!

Back to the weekend maths...

8 + 1 + 1 + 3...so, that should be about 13 hours a day...which means we have about 11 hours for family time. So for the two day weekend, we have 22 hours for the kids/family out of 48 hours given. 45%. Not bad at all.


Total the whole 7 days: 22 + 20 = 42 hours of kids/family time....out of 168 hours.

Generally, we spend about 30% of our time for the company in a week.
Generally, we spend about 27% of our time for a good rest in a week (membuta dalam meeting room/ office not included!!!).
Generally, we spend about 25% of our time with the kids/family in a week.
Generally, we spend about 10% of our time to be online in a week (teeheheheh..yeah right!!!)
Generally, we spend about 4% of our time to bathe+do-the-doo-doo in a week.
Generally, we spend about 4% of our time to pray.

I am sure we give 200% to each of the items mentioned.....especially the 25% time for the kids/family.....we would not substitute money for the quality time we'd spend with them...right?
Now now...be sincere!!! :o)

We spend about the same time of praying and being in the bathroom (itupun kalau sembahyang lah....well maybe a bit more but not even 10% in total...)

We spend a fraction more time for the company than for the kids/family...tak kira lagi dinner lah, training lah workshops lah meeting after office hours lah....and the actual "body, mind & soul" presence - kalau tak, apasal bawak balik laptop company every night + weekends?? (Kalau setakat nak ber FB/ Blogging etc. on company asset juga....hmmm!)

I am not going to say much....just look at the numbers and figure it out.
Of course, we have holidays and all....which should be more or less like a weekend percentage mentioned above....but..well, draw your own conclusion!

:o)


NOTE: The calculation might not be right.....but you are smarter than me, so, you get the idea, now just do it and conclude! :o)

This is what I think....

1.
Fuel price is up again. Same old story, minus the street demonstrations and massive gatherings...would be nice to have those again!!! :o)

Oh well, enough already. We all know it will be reduced - the subsidies - so get ready to absorb it back. If you cannot afford the fuel, then why are you driving that car you have?
Lining up at the petrol station to get a full tank of the price before it increases the next day is really unnecessary...unless if you are truly stupid and still insist it is a ritual you'd want to do every time the fuel price hikes!
Oh..and you thought the gas price was not going to be affected?

Too bad....but hey come on, if you drive a Beamer, would you attach it with NGV tank?
Oh please!! You must be wearing a fake Tag Heuer on your wrist then!!!

Can't you see we already have too many expensive vehicles with NGV tanks? Orang Kaya yang miskin or Orang Miskin yg Kaya? Or maybe Orang Bodoh yg suka berlagak Pandai & Kaya?

Not that I care much about gas sales, no I don't but well, if you still cannot afford the fuel for your car and have to install NGV to it, better think deep and make a proper decision....of course it goes without saying if the Toyoltah Al-Fart or EstiMak, Hon-Duh Strim, or whatever fancy car you have are part of the deal for "allowing" a project to proceed....definitely your money will never be enough.....NEVER. Partly because it is haram...partly because you are always tamak for more..in totality, is about what you want and how you're getting it.

My point is simple - kalau nak berlagak kaya pun, considerlah punca rezeki tersebut.

Bukan kita tak tahu bersepah yg konon kaya tapi punca rezeki dgn menindas orang lain & mengenepikan untutan agama Islam yg kononnya mereka anuti....sendiri fikir lah...sebab tu ramai yg memekak bila harga naik la itu ini...hakikatnya - gaya hidup melebihi kemampuan pendapatan.....sampai yg haram pun jadi halal sebab nak maintain style...biar papa asal bergaya...kan?

So, biar masuk nereka pun tak apa, asalkan bergaya....macam tu???

2.
So...still mahu halalkan yang haram?
Bak kata Ustaz Ismail Kamus - Susah nak cakap....jadilah - HALAM??

3.
Let's borak a bit on that title - menghalalkan yang haram.
We have been to accustomed or tuned-in to the things we are doing that we fail to realize some of it is not really in parallel to the teachings in Islam....and yet we still claim we are Muslims, well at least during Ramadhan we don't want to be caught not fasting...some even wear tudung for the sake of Ramadhan (only? Teheheh!!!)....ok let's start with my ramblings...

a) Tudung.
NOTE: Those who refuses to wear for whatever reason (including the likes of "aku sembahyang full siap bangun malam sembahyang lagi") just spare your argument with Allah when your time comes.

So, now we have so many options of tudung in the market. I don't know what to name here but I guess as a Muslimah or a Muslim too (perhaps) you do know there are may styles of tudung now. Good to have choices perhaps...but does it really fit the purpose of a tudung as required by Islam?

Mengaku ajer lah...mostly NO.

Tersingkat sana, terdedah sini, terbojol sana, terjebih sini, dah tu yg dgn sanggul macam bonjol unta lagi....buruk nak mampus...but I guess the trend of "busana muslim" now is like the conventional fashion world too - the uglier is the prettier?

Wake up already!!! As a Muslim, we are supposed to take care of our aurah (thus why I don't wear rugby shorts in public!!)...and the label "busana muslim" does not mean it concur to the given guideline of Islam.

So, siapa nak menjawab?

Sendiri pakai, jawab la sendiri....kalau yg dah ber suami pulak, dgn suami sekali laa menjawab jugak...tak tegur sebab itu dah dresscode yg professional? Oh how more professional can one be other than being truly professional to his/ her own creator?

Haaa lantak lak korang....I have done my part here....so, good luck lah nanti! :o)

b) Pakaian - top/ bottom
Even with a proper tudung, the blouse & trousers would still be questionable whether it fits the requirements of Islam...heck even the jubah being sold now pun are quite questionable....ketat tak menentu kat bahagian tertentu, too revealing compared to wearing a blouse infact.

Seluar/ pallazo or whatever...I bet many realized, ada yang terlalu sendat dan ketat, siap orang boleh trace the panty lines....jadah hapa bertudung kalau macam tu kan?

Bangga sangat ke orang sekarang ni tunjuk bodyshape kat public? Termasuklah lelaki - kemeja kerja sampai terbojol biji tetek....mesti mau tunjuk ke yg kau pergi gym 40 jam sehari dgn gym partners kau yg some mmg jenis gaylakhanat tu?
Adeihhh....jantan apa skrg ni ramai mcm pondan dah???

Again...kalau kau tu suami & isteri kau macam tu...boleh la refer at mana-mana Ustaz tanya pasal apa itu dayus. Modern & professional sangatlah kita ingat...padahal dah jatuh bab dayus tak mau ambik tahu lagi tu....

c) Wangian (Perfume laaa)
Perfume mesti branded....tak main la perfume celup kan? Paling tidak pun BRANDED CELUP pun boleh laaa...nak meang jugak tapi tak cukup duit nak bayar credit card yg dah max tu nanti....maklum lah professional, yuppy.

Bau dia punya cerita....sebatu lagi orang dah terbau.

Of course, consultant will sell the same shit la - it will boost your confidence & presentability.
Sampai bila nak ikut cakap consultant yg telan duit for selling stupid craps tu? Apasal haram plak kan pakai Ferragamo, Hermes etc etc utk solat? Presentable aperr wangi & branded?

Kat akhirat nanti sure presentable giler eh...sempat aaa nak tuang Channel No5 1liter sebelum mengadap Allah nanti kut?

(Owh...kalau korang tu jenis tak solat tak boleh cakap apa lah kan.....nak tegur tak boleh lah sebab semua lagi pandai drpd ustaz/ustazah yg khatam berapa banyak kitab Fiqh...mana tak pandai, Quran pun baca in English sahaja....)

4.
Anyway...
Those are just what I think...based on my limited knowledge in Fiqh, the concerns are valid.
Tak caya, pergilah tanya ustaz/ ustazah...or the least, try tgk Ustaz Zahirudin punyer site.

5.
Semua orang claim Muslim/ Muslimah sambut Ramadhan & Eidul Fitri.....but for once in our life, try to be a REAL MUSLIM/MUSLIMAH....I am doing a small part as a Muslim here...nak tegur sorang2 tak laa mampu, tulis jer dalam blog....nak accept, Alhamdulillah, tak nak accept, antara kamu dgn Allah lah nanti....

Weekday Routine?

1.
Wake up. Smile.
Get the twins to bathe & be in their school uniforms.
Solat Subuh with Wifey.
Wifey prepares breakfast & packed lunch for the kids.
Send the kids to school.

2.
Back from sending kids.
Check/ respond to e-mails & Facebook messages.
Check schedules, pack stuff according to schedule of the day.
Send Neena to kindergarten.
Send wife to office.
Attend schedules of the day.

3.
Mid day break - grocery shopping etc.
Dzhur.
Fetch the twins, chat with the twins.
Do laundry, clean the rooms & living area.
Editing works or whatever needs to be done while the kids do their homework.
As'r.
Prepare dinner.
Get the twins to prepare their bags for the next day.
Fetch wife, chat with wife.
Fetch Neena, chat with Neena.

4.
Maghrib with wife.
Dinner.
Family time - chat, play games, draw, watch TV, call family in Sarawak/ Johor etc.
Isya' with wife.

Bed time for kids.
Reading/ chat time with wife.

5.
Prepare for the next day's schedule - equipment check if needs be...etc etc.
Blog, write, sketch, research.

6.
Smile.
Sleep.
Wake up for extra Solat.
Smile.
Sleep.

7.
Repeat.



....so, you think you are busy?
I am....but I still can afford to find time to spare, if I want to. :o)

Vader meets a friend

.....geramnyyaaaaaa!!
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Hidup semula buat ke X kali

.....this almost stolen, then stolen, lost & found pile of steel comes with long history & story. It is not my first Audi...but it is my wheels, not an attention grabber but a reliable buddy, for more than a decade already.
I don't mind not having my first Audi, yet...not until the cash is ready...

For now the priority is not for fancy wheels....it never has, and never will!

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Breakfast date

.....yummy!
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1972.07.09 - 2010.07.09 - xxxx.xx.xx

1.

For the past many years I have been writing this blog, I seldom write much about the person whom I have loved with all my heart, all my life. Most of my entries is about our children (and my grumblings, complaining, et cetera, et cetera et cetera...)

...but deep in my heart, that special person has always been my source of inspiration, my energy provider, my soul. I can never find the words that would be able to describe how I feel for her...but with what ever words I can use, I can never be convinced by my own self that I have I have told her enough about my feelings for her.

Whatever it is, she's the only one that I could ever love with all my heart and soul, for eternity.

She has done a lot for me. For our children.

I could never imagine living my life without her by my side.

2.

Sayang, the only gift I would ever ask for all my birthdays, is to always be with you and our children.

3.

Siti Hajar

Alisya Irdina

Naufal Irsyad

Aliya Irdina

....

H-ajar

A-lisya

N-aufal

A-liya

HANA....in Japanese, it means flower ✿

For as long as I am still able to say it, I would always say it....

Abang sayang Hajar.

Ayah sayang Alisya.

Ayah sayang Naufal.

Ayah sayang Aliya.

Forever.

Subway

....for dinner, once in a while. Yummy.
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Short sentences

1.

Frankly, too many things are loitering in my head this past few weeks....I am simply amazed I am still breathing and trying hard to swallow the stuffs being thrown at me......

2.

2010-05-21 (21 May 2010) Friday. CHAPTERSimages 001953537-W.

The Republik no more. Tres Foto no more.

Trust no more.

3.

Since then, is has been whirlpool of dizziness.

Confusion, failures albeit joyful achievements.

4.

At the lowest part of life, learn and accept there shall be:

No support. Only criticism, blame, construction of void and distance, gaping more and more with no apparent reasons.

Failing is worse than dying a slow death.

Success means none of the above.

...but never forgive. Just forget.

5.

It's a different day. From now.

Silent scream in a deafening serenity.

i am still around, please allow me to be.

i shall not overstay my welcome, i'll go on that day.

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ALHAMDULILLAH.....inching my way to the set target, insyaAllah.

Siti Hajar Ahmat...

...I love you so much, so much so and I am at the edge of being insane...
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Fag...

...greeted a long lost friend, to continue the rest of my life.

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A Day For Fathers

1.
I don't quite understand why there's a day for fathers and a day for mothers but I do love and respect my parents though I never really celebrated those days with them.

When my babies gave me those cards (like they have done for so many years already), it made me feel appreciated and at the same time I feel I have not done enough at all for them - my kids, my wife.

At the same instance, I feel empty, deserted but I am not sure why.

Well, the best I can do is to continue the journey and do my best....without neglecting the extra prayers and doa...

2.
Show me the path, Allah.

Early risers

...me and my boy, Naufal. As always.
Naufal wanna ride a big bike when he grow up....
Me too....bila la agaknya aku dpt beli sebijon....
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Self-portraiture: Alisya Irdina Khairil

Alisya Irdina did this on her own, using her Fujifilm Point & Shoot.

Really good for a kid - to be able to figure this out!

Perfect exposure, nice framing, SHARP!

Some people out there would take ages to fiddle around the setting of their DSLR, contemplating what lens to use, how to bounce the flash (erkk, really need flash ka? CLS? STUDIO LIGHTING SET?!!)

In the end, the moment is gone....not the case for Alisya Irdina Khairil! :o) ALHAMDULILLAH!

Tea & strawberry

...exploration day for the kids!
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C is for....

...Cameron Highlands.
That's where Neena & family are heading right now.
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Dusty Heat

...one of the pieces of my very recent work:
"Dusty heat - charcoal makers of Port Weld"
Finally walking my own path to the destination I set.

Fueled with determination and pure passion...but no matter how well I am going to make it through, my feet will ALWAYS be touching the ground.
So, Please Help me Allah...for I have suffered enough.

Work?

Imagemaker at work, Port Weld, Perak, Malaysia.

~ Khairil F. Jamian, CHAPTERSimages, Malaysia

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18 Holes? No thanx....I have a family.

1.
Supposedly, I had to meet my buddy and do some shots of the business booth I co-sponsored for an event in Putrajaya. Lesson learned on that Saturday was, Park & Ride buses are cool...but the tram system that was supposed to support the carnival- suck big time!
Anyway, the kids enjoyed the bus ride. Maybe one day when they are ready we'll do a bus-trip journey. That would be fun, I guess...but that will have to come after their first camping trip which is something the twin have always been asking since they were 5 years old.

2.
The crowd in Putrajaya was just too much to handle - with the heat and humidity on the top of the chart - the kids were dehydrated and we decided to call it off, and take a break at a nearby On The Run....then back to our rumahpangsa...just in time to enjoy Nim's Island! It was one of their favorite movies when they were younger...and they still enjoy it yesterday....after Nim's Island, everything seems dark and cozy....last thing I heard was - "Byee Ayah kita nak pergi pool"...

Zzzzz.....

3.
Ever since I am on this medication-diet (or whatever you wanna call it), I have not been taking rice for almost a month and a bowl of soup is enough to make me full and I guess that's why I could not really recall what we had for dinner!!! Anyway, the kids were surprisingly still energetic after a long day...so, I had to do something...bedtime story the extended version....and they slept well.

4.
The next thing I knew, wifey asked me to switch off the TV!! My notebooks were all around me, I guess I must have been trying to sketch the framework for my documentary works to be featured somewhere by year end....or was I just trying to sleep on the couch? Entahlah!!

5.
We had a late start on Sunday which is ok, since our everyday starts at 5:45am, so 6:30am is still ok compared to those who stars they weekend at 1pm!!!! :o)
The whole bunch decided to lepak by the pool - kids wanna play with their scoots. After a light breakfast we head on to the library (rather a reading room for me!) and spend the day in there until we had lunch at the clubhouse cafe.

6.
It was a nice way to spend the weekend. Since the kids can now read storybook and all (including Neena) we are trying to make them accustom to be in a library environment. Everybody bring their own writing equipments and notebooks....and they enjoy sitting together drawing, sketching, writing, reading....and I finally managed to properly do the framework and initial contacts for the documentary projects.

7.
Maybe I would not be able to to all this if I am...say....a golf addict....I think....?
I cannot ask my kids to sit and read, write, sketch if I am not doing the same thing.....but then again golfers (or desperate wannabe) may just bring their kids to the course and play all 18-holes with the family!!!
Well...I am not fortunate enough like them...but I am very fortunate to be me and to be with my family because, that is the best way of life I can ever think of....most of all, sincerely living it, not living it because I desperately want to be acknowledged by the society!
That is why I never peduli if people ask me why I don't play golf...as if it is a sin!

Here's my actual answer that I never have the heart to tell any golfer:
There's more to life than just wasting a bundle of hundred RM and a weekend with 18 overly used holes.....aye?

Hmm...while I am at it, just to answer other "groupies" killer questions too:

+ There is more to life than going on a joy-ride with that expensive two-wheeled machine underneath your balls...while riding, the positives of your amal get depleted per kilometer of ride because of the rasa juah & riak menunjuk2....aye?
Ohh spare me the argument, please! Setitik halus pun sure mesti ada rasa bangga memiliki dan menunjuk2 mototbusat kat public...kan?

+ There is more to life than going around all weekend shooting almost naked model yg dah mmg dia tu bini orang or anak orang...sesetengah awak tu dah ada cucu pun masih bodoh nak mampus lagi pasal light & basic exposure...nak kena ada model tertonggeng2 baru boleh belajar?? Dah abis belajar pasal hukum agama yg paling basic....dah?

8.
Nope, aku tak perli sesiapa in person. Just reminding everybody in general and I am just telling myself yet again how fortunate I am to sincerely live a life with this beautiful family of mine!

9.
Marah? Well...I never invited you to read my ramblings in the first place.... :o)