Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Shadow chaser

The day is drawing nearer....time to pack but I still have a couple of stuff to nail down before leaving.
Anyway, I was a bit down this morning when the Germany deal failed. The writer did not have the authority to purchase so she decided to use some other shots from somewhere. I realized that I did the right thing - none of my shots are for free! My skills, effort & passion comes with it so no way I am giving any of it easily for free. Though it means I am back to square one, the time will come when it will come sooner or later insyaAllah!
To cater for "the loss" I decided to send two shots to the stock agency I am attached to...Alhamdulillah...not bad at all, one of the two shots was accepted so, I am good. More stock shots for the agency after this!

I don't know exactly why I like to compose shadows..but part of it was due to some influence by Trent Parke's works. I even created a dedicated experimental & discussion thread in one local photography forum about composing shadows. After more than a year, the thread is still pretty much active and shots are still being sent in for discussions. Well anyway, the shot above was accepted by the agency (proper format, not web version like this one lah). I did it while waiting for Mama to pick me up from work....

The present state of my spot in the zoo!
Wehehehe!! The boxes are waiting to be filled. The mess will be cleared soon for the next occupant...who, I don't know and I don't really want to know! I don't actually car much about the workstaion. Where ever I am stationed this one section will remain the same. This is where I put the photos and stuff to remind me of my kids & family. Some of the items have been with me ever since I started working more than a decade ago....and still in good the white mug in this shot....been there with me since 1996!

Recently I added another member to my fountain pen collection (as if aku ada byk sgt fountain pen!! Wekekeek!). I bought the same Lamy!! The purpose is to have one with green ink and one in black ink.
....but I have not written anything for a very long time in that monologue.....will have to start again soon since I have decided not to bring the Mac to office anymore so that I can spend time to write & shoot, not editing!

Can't wait for the week to end...have planned something for the kids!

Monday, July 28, 2008

Olympia DL2000

There is only so much of things on a list that I can do in a day. Sometimes I can do more, sometimes I can do less. Sometimes I just don't bother to do the list and decided to do anything else , totally unrelated to the list. That is a sign that I am tired or pi**ed with something or someone or many things....or many "ones"....but I still try to do the minimum so that nobody will be in don't look too bad to the eyes of any farking people they are trying to impress. Recently, I had to do deliver another "small" miracle for the Zoo....and I did. Then, as I though I am incompetent imbecile, I was shoved and kept in the dark..and today the whole shipload is at a place discussing things for the benefit of the organization in the next FY. Everybody else is there because we need to cut the number of support staff...and I am one who volunteered to not to be there. Support staff? Eheheh! With this brain that I have, I am not going to rate myself just as a support staff ! I have had enough of everything with this Zoo. Last Friday I was in the lift with the Top Most Leader The Zoo - The VeePee. I don't even bother to say salam or hello to him. I consciously made that effort not to. He's not entitled for any kind of respect from me. The rest of the Zoo have given enough of that already I guess..for whatever reason. Truth be told, this same idiot was the one "officiating" an orientation for a bunch of new staff, lead by a Penghulu. That Penghulu observed this same person and concluded he's filled of bulls**t and knows nothing about the other business lines except for the one he's been doing all his life...and not an impressive contribution at all so to say, because the mess had to be cleared up by the next leader who took the place. Ironically the Penghulu was also called in to be in of of the transformation effort...and couple of years after that took pride to be in the seat of a unit he himself helped created.
To cut short, the Penghulu is moi. No applause please...I was just doing my part to turn the organization to the better.
The journey to the center of the organization has come to end end and I can conclude my hypothesis when I first started in working - I was spot on. The center is filled with....(you have read my entries...fill in the blanks)....who has no respect to the lines and too afraid to face them.
Finally I can move on - and they made it look as if I am not fit to be here - so insecure, these bastards - the fact is there are more than 3 positions waiting for me without requiring me to be interviewed. No, I am not damn good - only the Zoo creatures always like to think they are - I just do my part of the deal as expected and hope to get a proper reward as a return from the unit I am in.
So far, it never happen. The worse is when I am not only denied my rewards but being demoted without proper justification.
So when I got the letter from HR Zoo, who mentioned that I need to improve yadayadayada...I just put it aside and wish someday some of the idiots in the HR fraternity will be audited and be properly punished - they don't have a clue what is happening in the organization...if they even do, they just prefer to shove it up their own arsses and pretend they have made things good for everybody. Amazing.

...okay, enough rambling. The day is 16th August....but I am shutting down all my contribution to the Zoo from today - the final "miracle" has been delivered and I was treated like an idiot for helping out so I don't think I owe anybody in this Zoo anything more than just a polite "talk to the hand" message from today!

There! My new toy! A very unique camera sold to me by my good-old buddy Ian Ahmad: great talent in photojournalism and documentary photography - please visit his site, the link at the sidebar of this blog. He has quite a collection of camera - which he bought at very low prices...the thing about Ian is he is not actually a collector, he uses the cameras to test his skills and try to produce the best!
Well...I have just sent the first roll of film to be processed. Shots taken from last Friday up to this morning. Even did a night photography session with Ian & Jidin, after we had a really good discussion with Shuk & Zaid of Belantara on the weekend....I went to bed at 4am that morning.

This week I want to be a bit more serious than the previous 2-3 weeks in framing my daily shots...maybe need to do a proper plan to deliver a short documentary of a subject by end of this week.....

So....for a start....I have to listen to more RATM music!!

Monday, July 21, 2008

36y + 12d and counting days....

It's been almost 12 days. Been trying my best to cope with stuff in the Zoo....difficult to find time to write and when I am back at home, cannot keep awake that long anymore...fatigue. Maybe because I am forcing myself too much to do stuff for the Zoo - final stint Ah Torque! ...for the sake of friends who will still be there....just a couple more weeks to go......
Anyway, whatever I still have to endure at the Zoo, my celebration mode is still quite alive. We went to see Journey to the center of the Earth in 3-D, the most expensive movie ever for me - RM17 each! - but it was worth every single sen spent. The kids just enjoyed it and next in line would be Batman....woohoo!

Some more shots, my b-day cake cutting with the kids
The MC is non other than Miss Kepohchee-ketot....

Other than trying to complete the whatevereitisthatIhavetocompletebeforeIgetthehelloutofthestinkingZoo stuff, I try to remain sane by solving the cube....
....which I managed to solve in a record time of 2min 11 sec. Anybody can try beat that I guess...I am just wondering how the world record was set at 8 seconds! I did not boy myself anything to mark the 36th b-day...tho I really am screaming inside to get that legendary supremo-wide lens that I am good in handling...but that can wait...the money means a lot more to some friends & relatives than me purchasing the lens, or anything at all...let them have it first, my time will come sooner or later insyaAllah.

...and I finally managed to complete the editing job for the kids sports day, concept paper for Belantara & the shots done during the discussion preparing for a golf tournament shoot mid August...

I have became "selfish" in many ways - no free shots anymore, I don't offer my skills or views or knowledge freely anymore to just about anybody, I don't give input or suggestion willingly unless the audience or the person who ask for it is worthy to be given such feedback....

Simply because I feel I can just trust some of the core members the ChAPs as really worthy friends, peers...while at the same time we still push & compete against each other to produce better works than any other....envied by some perhaps. Only them ChAPs dude in this world are kool tand worthy to be trusted!
....the rest - at The Zoo especially - I cannot say much about them anymore....the damage I have suffered is too much already. Really can't wait for August to arrive.

The political scenario in this country has never been so interesting....I am apolitical but I must say, I have been a victim to the ruling party since I was 10 years of age. So, basically I have no respect to any leaders who has an empty space between their ears....and that is just it! Go figure!

Anyway, the current issue actually helped me a lot to build my portfolio...some of my shots were being hmmm...well, recognized, if I may use that word, by a couple of on-line photojournalism sites.... of the site approached me and asked for my permission to use one of my shots....did some negotiation and we'l see how it goes from here...another step forward for me...Alhamdulillah.

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

36 & Rubik's cube moves 90, 180, 360 degree

Wheee!!! ayah dah manguuunn!!

Here Ayah! Amik nih!! From all of us....
(Read: We dunno what's in it but it's from us allrite!)

What is this? A cube? One big & one small?
Like what do we do with this cube? Eeish boringnya..., & Mama, thanxxx soooo muuch!!!

What else can I ask for but the most beautiful and wonderful family anyboy could ever have!!!!
I called Mak and talked to her right on the actual minute she delivered me 36 years ago. Thanx Mak & Abah, for everything!

Since this is my day, I guess I am entitled for some bragging...eheheh....
See that tiny Rubik's Cube? Well, I scrambled it minutes before my birthday today and while trying to slve it I had to do an "operation" - the term me & my buddy Tai Siew Shien back in 1982 use when a cube had to be dismantled because the positioning of the colors are not correct according to the formula to solve it - this may happen when we apply pressure too much on the cube and it just broke off...well, you cannot simply put the pieces back in, it had to be in the correct position...and there's 43 QUANTILLION combinations so the best one would be to set all 6 faces corectly and scramble it again.....tough luck!

Anyway, I followed an on-line formula page - the one that came with the tiny cube is a the "mirror image" of the formula I used to apply to solve this cube....

Yeah, ALHAMDULILLAH, me being the awesome Mr Torque, with the brains and the creativotoes and all the best words you can ever imagine in this universe, I managed to solve the cube.....the first time ever since 1984! 24 years man! I am awesomenessly good!!!

No charge for awesomenessly goodness!

Tuesday, July 08, 2008

No charge for Awesomeness - Po

The days after my last posting (below) were just too hectic. As I wrote this, I actually wish I am lying in bed, while the rain pours heavily outside.....too fatigue yet I have to complete something by tomorrow so here I am (writing this blog instead of doing that s**t I am supposed to!)

Well anyway....the kids had their sports carnival recently, and as usual, I am the OP!
Alisya & Naufal took part in the Aikido demo...wheeheeheehee ! Seriously, don't mess around with my kids ok, you might end up in a hospital with "tangan terkehel!" They are AWESOME!

Karnival Petronas is another one that happened recently. Yeah I did some shots of my kids during the event (since I am not the OP!) but I am not going to post much of it in here...karang tak pasal2 pulak orang demo kata Petronas telan duit rakyat lagi! (For those who still think like that - WAKE UP LAA WEIH!) Ahahahah!

To cut it short, most of the weekends, we spent our time together at the condo and celebrated Naufal's 5th B'day and Aiman's 1st B'day - adik sesusu to the kids & adik to Allayarham Faris in my earlier entry....
For his birthday, Naufal was delighted to have many toy solddiers, armored-tanks, fighterplanes and all the stuff on his birthday cupcakes. Each friends get one toy...and a goodies bag - something that he kids insists to give every birthday they celebrate. Since it is their rezeki anyway, why not!

Actually it was supposed to be a birthday cake cutting but Mama tersilap mention to the Pricipal and the teachers were excited already - they always love to have Mam's cupcakes!
So, instead og baking & decorating one cake, Mama had to bake & decorate about 60 cupcakes!

...of course, the busiest person on that day was Neena lah!2.
I still need more time to be with the kids...unfortunately (but rather fortunate for my photojournalism journey) I had to do some shooting last weekend too...

One is for Belantara - Shuk & Zaid & the core fan members....really AWESOME!
.....and something is going to happen soon insyaAllah....

Another one would be the long anticipated Protes 1 Juta Rakyat...50% editing completed and in my flickr....I had the opportunity to follow & observe how a "legend" does his masterpieces - SupremoMasterSifu Jimin Lai. Really AWESOME!
Well , this shot is mine, not Jimin's!Fuel Price Hike Protest - Congregation of 1Million Malaysians

We have seen Kungfu Panda too!
Neena calls it UNGKU ANDA! Really cool movie. The kids love it sooooooo much!
...and I am allowed by them to become Po - because "Ayah gemuk...macam Ungku Anda"

Weheheheh! Don't blame me! NO CHARGE FOR AWESOMENESS!!