Monday, July 23, 2007
Sleepless nights are common to students and the likes...but for me, though officially I am not a student anymore, sleepless nights seems to be quite a natural thing...especially when the drive to achieve something is fuelling the effort.
Especially when I know I just have to do it for my own good. I just wish I have the gift to make people realize how much they are hurting others in their selfish effort to meet their greed.
The greener grass, the greater greed.....
Sometimes people just don't realize which is which.
What is right equals what is wrong. Halal & haram means nothing as long as they have the money in their accounts and shamelessly brag about it......yeah, your time, now.
So go ahead and enjoy yet another round of it, while it lasts....
...but whatever it is, at the end of each day, it will always be me to come home as a true champion everytime without fail - simply because I have Alisya, Naufal, Aliya & my lovely wife. Nothing is more rewarding than being with them!
Sunday, July 22, 2007
Inspired by the works of Trent Parke.....
....one of the best photojournalists ever to walk the earth
It is rewarding in getting the target you set being achieved due to your own commitment and determination. When I started the "shadow experiment" I actually told my self this would probably be on of the toughest experiment I would have done, it is. But Alhamdulillah, those nights of studying the works of Trent Parke and the likes, discussing methods & ideas with aspiring phtographers alike...I think I managed to achieve my target much sooner than expected. However, it does not stop here.....
All weekend I have spent my time being very very close with baby Aliya. Infact, on both Saturday & Sunday I would be there when she woke up. Take her for a morning spin and do stuff together. Nothing more important and beatutiful than being able to spend your time with your kids. I wish weekend lasts for 5 days and we only work for 2 days a week instead.
On the last sentence from the paragraph above - why do we dedicate almost 70% of our life in a week to people who just want to take all the credits & rewards for their own benefit and at every end of the cycle we'd fin oourselves in a pool of dishearthened employees who has delivered more than the rest but being treated as scumbags? Why? Because cest-la vie? Cest-la vie your foot! Dudes & dudedettes, take control of your future. It may not be in the cubicle you are working in...it never is actually! There's a bigger world out there!
All the while, I have been trying to improve my compositions & capabilities in photography all for but one simple reason - I have to take control of my future. As simple as it may sound,what triggers it is an ugly reality and complexity that I wish would have never exist in this world. Simply put, sometimes you have to accept the reality that people who knows Jack Schitt would be better off then people who humbly and sincerely work their stuff for the beneit of the organizatioin at large. Jack Shitt will only take care of his Schitt and those who wants to please his Schittiness. The zooleader has gone too far this time and he's getting some Schitt alright. Soon. Together with the bunch of Schittiness lovers in the zoo. If soon does not happen, there is always the later, the Hereafter. You know what the good book says about the prayer of those who has always "teraniaya".....so, see you in hell zookeeper & farking bitch...owhh wat a second, I would not be seeing you farkers there cuz hell is not my destination of choice!! I bet it would be an enjoyable sight seeing you all being burnt without mercy.....can't wait for that moment....
Tuesday, July 17, 2007
Monday, July 16, 2007
Read this: I WILL CLAIM WHAT HAV BEEN DENIED OF ME & MY FAMILY LATER IN THE HERE AFTER!No use talking about the farkers and anaksharams......they can get richer and richer as they wish.
To each, his own. From this moment onwards!
So now let us just move on to talk about other stuff than work.
The kids are growing and growing. Aliya is really turning into a cheeky & cunning girl. She’s very playful and where we bring her, she’ll the natural the attention of people around. One thing I sense about Aliya, she’s the “mengalah type” to a certain extent. Yeah she’ll “demand” for stuff when she wants but when it involves the other siblings, she seems to understand that Alisya & Naufal has different “background” and she (Aliya) has to allow the siblings for a tad more “privilege”. Nevertheless they all get along together very fine. They love each other so much. They wud do almost everything together…..except for movies. Yeah movies. Alisya & Naufal has been going to the cinema. The latest would be TRANSFORMERS. Kesian juga when we have to leave Aliya with the maid everytime we get to enjoy the movies but as I mentioned above, Aliya seems to understand the situation very much, she’d happily wave us beybeyh (bye-bye) and give us her version of flying kisses.
She’s a gem. We love her so much.
I have been spending most of my photography activities with ImageMaker & RahmanRoslan nowadays. Reason being - if you wanna be the best, you gotta work like the best, be with the best.
NO, I don't want to be the best, I just wanna get teh best out of me and than we'll see how we can move from there on! (Not a being a pessimist at all but just a realistic ambition that!)
The last outing was actually the first outing with them - they decided to shoot with me so that they can "study how I make my images". So far, so good....so what? This is what - I have 1 month and a half to complete a portfolio and submit it to one od the leading photojourna agency of the world (yeap open to all but being asked by a real pro to do it means a lot more to me - sometimes we just do not see what are we capable to do and need a push from somebody else, in my case it came from a pro - established pro....that should mean something at least!
Like RahmanRoslan said to me: GO Torque GO!!!
..now I know I am not just a "syok sendiri perasan bagus" kinda photographer.....Alhamdulillah.
If there is one part of the housing area that really matters much for the family it would be the the children's playground. Quite recently, there neighborhood organized a session to clean up the playground. I was there (well, ,after much nagging from my lovely wifey! Eheheh!) with my boy Naufal....literally we cleared the lot - the two of us.....and I took some shots of it....
(Insert image here)
Couple of days later, this is what we get:
(will post up later)
So much about living with civilized human beings...the kids & parents o the kids who made this mess should be living with the llamas, not humans!
I was told today that my leadership rating was given a low score by the Zooleader.
Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! Why should I bother? His brain is filled with pigshit anyway!!
Monday, July 09, 2007
I have my own very valid reason to conclude that. Hear me....
The MAD'07 was designed & executed by a bunch of highly capable & clever lunatics (ehem!) who have the ability to think and to execute (not just think & talk-cock) things from end to end - out side of the stinking box. For the same reasons, the bunch of dudes involved were the same one who managed to set a blueprint and launch a company years ago - whatever happenned to that company is totally out of the equation since the same dudes were refused the rights to intervene in whatsoever means available....not even allowed to questions the decisions of the gorillas who took the helm of that spin-off company.
But to cut it short - we don't really care that much - they can do what they want, cuz it's their neck at the end of the day - Resurrection day that is!
Now back to the story I am trying to tell....
The MAD'07 was a success - it shouldbe if not why the hell would the Second Biggest Guy went to the control desk and congratulate each & every one of the executive in charge...not to say the words from the Biggest-est Guy - as told by the other leaders throughout the proceedings until the ned of the event where he witnessed how the team handled a really critical tech-glitch under pressure...and delivered!
OK..those were just "making me feel good" statements. In short - we did VERY well. NO QUESTIONS AT ALL!
...but...when I am back in the zoo today, I was asked to do another miracle (FYI, my middle name for the past 12 years in the zoo is - Miracle Worker whohasnevermadeitpastthemanagementlineandstill
I gladly took it as another day in the office and comes Wednesday I will be presenting some analytics to the zooleaders....nothing much of a challenge actually, since I was nevere an above average performer regardless whatever miracles I have shoved up the arsses of the farking leaders for years ago...so, it is just another day in the office....sure, the above average arsekissers would be able to deliver the same (YEAH RIGHT!!! they cud not NEVER do it, not without 6 months delay and in the end asking the miracle worker to sort it out in 2 days!!)....yeah, pretty much like any other day in the office actually, nothing that challenging for an average performer, shooting Street Life is more challenging lah!
What pissed me off was as I was trying to figure out the quickest way to get the analytics done (figure crunching coordination...hv to give the proper instructions and design proper template for the secretaries to use...if I don't want to end up with a bundle of chaos tomorrow!) I read comments that I do not expect to come from anybody holding a title at that level....comments on room & facilities not being the best, and such - the nitty-gritty shit that you should not expect from a LEADER for crying out loud! .
I don't mind if they commented on how the external speakers did or what could have been better to be included in the agenda instead of the very capable figures we managed to get to present....
....NOT about the room they slept in with their bitches were not as comfortable as they expected it to be!! Farking idiots!
Why do we keep them as leaders anyway?!
I don't know, honestly!
...but what I do know, next round of the same event, I will insist all feedback forms to be filled will have the names of the bastards involved....then I can really do a detailed analysis whether they have delivered what is expected of them in the first place and compare it to their personal preferences of "bedroom comfortability"....
...at your position and perks you are having: We do not pay you to sleep comfortably anyway mister!!
...one of the shot I did in an outing with some Pro-Photojournalists recently....it woudl be fun if we can replace the "Missing" man with images of the brain of those idiotas I mentioned above...aye?
It has been a very busy week for me, last week. Ada hari tak tidur langsung, some days if I can get 3-4hours nap it would be a luxury....but the MC/ CEO Away Day 2007 finally done, I am hoping for more relaxed week, this week...but to bad for me, it is going to be another hectic week....dammit....why can't a guy get his wish granted on his birthday?!!!
Anyway...I will have to get used to this hectic schedulefor another 10-12 months. Maybe after I get a proper reward for delivering what is expected (and more perhaps) I will decide where to move next. For now I am just going to talk about the photography outing that I have done recently....when I have the "mood" to do so...
Sekarang ni tadek mood...was really trying to write something but sebab this frigging Acer junk is really lousy, this is getting on my nerve...the keyboards, goddammit....everything is never right with any Acer!
Maybe I will write on my Mac later tonite...or if I can get hooked to a hotspot....maybe, too many maybe already....
I need a break!